pissed off

who cares
they all complain
but dare not to listen or look
dare not to change them selfs

i try so hard
and work my ass off
and all i get is complaints
all i get is rejections

the world is not enough to satisfy me

i would settle for far less
but they are to blind to see

i have been called so many things
and all of those things i am
and all the damned complaints i work on
but never do they come and say
well you did great
thanks

none of you here i think bad of
none of you i would be angry at
but then again
i seem to be

murders have reduced
19%
i will not take the credits
but some sure put the blame on me

i would kill
just ask
i have killed
and without remorse

the things i do
go beyond your imagination
and i work my ass of
just to make your life easy
but i think i will stop
stop this ungratefull work
and be selfish again

i think i will return to the kill at will thing
the indiscriminate killing for the fun of it
the hurt for hurt's sake
none of you seem to care more or less
your so selfabsorbed
afraid to see
blinded by the lust and greed
the fun of it all

guess i will get my fun
and do all i want
who cares what you want or need
because when you get what you need
you ask in all inpolite manner for more
when you get what you want you just ask for the next best thing

maybe this is about me
but then again
murders have reduced 19%
when i claimed what they called me

the devil !

monster
i am alien
to you

you are (but) human to me

monster, man, 47 jaar

• Asih woensdag 27 april 2005 21:40
  Why try to separate yourself from ALL others?
  Of course YOU are one of US!
  Not alien, just you ...
  LET all of us think, feel, talk, write, act like we 'want' to and let it grow, ALL we cab do is share what we have with each other & 'hope for the best'?
• monster woensdag 27 april 2005 22:00
  if only that was true
  then my anger would fade
  and i could rest for once
  
  my head hurts
  my ear is bitten
  if only you knew
  the pain
  
  if only you would know
  what i have known my whole life
  if only you could see
  what i have seen
  
  i should be dead, then i would not feel this
  and you would not be bothered by me
  i should be dead
  but they did not allow me to die
  
  you don't know the half of it
  this is my prison
  life sentence
  with no way out but through
  
  wish i could change things for the better for you and every one
  i have wasted my wishes on that so many times
  i have worked so hard for those wishes to come true
  but no one knows
  that they have become reality
  
  i am such a sorry asshole
  
  don't think i am one of you
  cause if i was
  i would have raped
  i would have done things you would dispise
  but i rejected that
  i rejected fait
  
  i am not one of you
  because you just live your fait
  
  i fucked up big time
  i don't belong here
  

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