unable to live life free

i try
but it does not matter
i can not be
me

not like this

if i changed sides
i'd be free
but i dispise them
would want nothing more
but to kill them all

i can not live life free

i looked in the world
and no place comforts me
i am too shy to find arms to find shelter in
or too causious

i do not want this
but i guess i have to
go on living a lie

the passifist loser
the less than angry emotions
it's so frustrating
so dumbed down
plain stupid if you'd ask me
to live here now

this world filled with people who think so much of themselfs
while having no respect at all towards others
no respect for nature
no respect at all
they call it self respect
but it is the devaluation of life
it is the lowest of the low
and i am stuck in it
i suck at it
and i'd rather be home

where the fuck is that any way
cause here it is not
and there is no place
that comforts me
no place where i can be
free.

some say i should just do
some say i should let it all go
but they don't know
don't realize
the simplicity of my nature

on a good day
i'd kill every last one of them
every soul i see
just to feel good about myself
to feel free
and some question
how about me ?
i guess you'd know
if this was not this world.

may open hostilities come soon
may hell be unleashed upon the ignorent and foolish
cause it is all they deserve
and then i can be free
to do what i am good at
to do what comes natural
but now
i can't do any thing
everything has been FUCKED UP BEYOND ANY RECOGNITION
fubar as they said
that is the world
and going even deeper

you fuck like rabbits
spread like a virus
kill like it is nothing
and you don't even realize it.
you are not worthy
but i am not free
to show you
what you really mean to me.

i hope some one can bring me home
cause for now
i might as well be dead
which is so much closer to home than this
this idiot life
this rotten sespool of commercial waste
this greedy care not world

maybe i should
pull some strings
but i should have
some ways
and i am
in a place
without the strings

PLEASE
can some one get me home ?