I wish...

I wish i was gone

I wish my parents cared about me without the parent duty

I wish i didn't knew that they would exchange me at the birth if they knew i was gonna have this problem

I wish i could be sure about my friends standing up for me

I wish i didn't loose my parents every day a bit more

I wish my dad could say sorry

I wish they could learn from their mistakes

I wish they believed me

I wish they didn't saw me like the ordinary teenager with small problems

I wish they took me serious

I wish i didn't start crying while writing this because then I wouldn't know it's true

I wish i didn't want to drink my problems away

I wish i had the courage

I wish not too think that i should run away

I wish not too wish i was dead sometimes

I wish they took my depression serious

I wish i got something bad like fainting or coma so they would knew how bad it was.

I wish i had the brave to cut myself too let them take it serious

I wish i didn't wish that

I wish i didn't have too wish anything of this

I wish there was another way to let my parents know except let them read this

I wish they would do something about it if they read this

I wish they wouldn't forget

I wish i didn't have to write this down

I wish i could escape

I wish my mom wasn't self-pity

I wish my mom while being self-pity still cared and took care of me

I wish I didn't have to remind my parents about my daily headache

I wish my dad didn't say i use it as excuse

I wish i couldn't feel anything.

I wish it wasn't neccessarry to wish all of the above

I wish i thought i don't have to send a link of this to my mom, but my feeling is that no one would figur it out because no one askes

And as last a reminder of before: I wish they would do something if they read this and not put it away en forget it