My saver



Every morning you leave me motionless and unsettled, closing the door behind you while assuring me that you'll be back tonight. I know you'll be back, it's not that. I never doubt you, or us, or everything we have. It´s just that it feels like you´re taking the life in me with you, when you go.

Because you are the only one who brings my buried true nature to the surface. It´s only when I´m around you, that I get to know myself and realise what I´m capable of. We are a perfect team, and I´m ever so proud to be included in our flawless game. When we play, the world feels like our own and sometimes I even imagine people staring at us in amazement and joy. That´s when I feel the proudest. And I´m no lesser proud of myself than I am of you.

But life is not for playing and work is always waiting.

I'm balancing on a thin line, always trying to keep myself going but only feeling alive when you´re with me. Your absence makes me stagger, makes me forget the goals we used to play for and the role I used to fulfil. Loneliness will somehow always manage to break up my world and isolate me with a deep belief of self-worthlessness. Where I´ll then be waiting for you to pick me up.
10 apr 2012 - bewerkt op 10 apr 2012 - meld ongepast verhaal
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